In The Great Wide Somewhere: 07/12/21

low-key aloof

I have to back up

to when I was walking into the hotel one night

head stuck on my zoom class that was barely starting at

9 pm because it was actually 5 in Hawaii

I was about to get to the door of that hotel when out of the blue rolls up 2 humans on robots

segways

I was barely alert enough to hear my roommate friend say

“This is Nate Witt and Matt”

“Hello nice to meet you”

I looked at them both briefly and said something cliche about how I’d heard good things about them

Then, head down, I dove into the hotel- into the elevator- and into my room to continue my class

Time goes by

I made a journal video on my phone and said this at the end:

“So yeah, there’s my five minutes of fame with myself for my posterity that low-key came from sperm probably.

So, just so you know posterity… Summer sales is the reason why you exist because right now I’m probably not gonna get married.

In fact, I’m gonna go look up how much sperm is right now because that will motivate me to get back on the doors.”

(Direct answer from google: Costs vary, since sperm banks and fertility centers all set their own prices, but a vial of donor sperm generally costs $900

to $1,000. The insemination procedure itself is often about $200 to $400, though it can be higher.”

TWO DAYS LATER

We are in my bosses backyard sitting by a bunch of strangers to eat and I have 2 major things going on in my head

I just went on a date with a co-worker and I don’t want him to think I’m not interested in him. There are all these cute guys I’m sitting by who I don’t even know, so I will make it very clear to the guy that I went on a date with that I am not flirting with any of them and am in fact interested in him.

A co-worker who I am friends with is also interested in the one that I went on a date with so I need to make it very clear to her that I am not going to flaunt my interactions with the date co-worker in front of her because she will feel bad.

so what do you do when you can't talk to the guy you like

and you can't join in on the conversation with your friends

Who are conversating with the attractive guys you don't know

whom happen to be sitting around a fire with you?

Answer:

Don’t talk to anyone.

LOL

I was very much not, and yet 100% aloof

little did I know one of those cute boys that I was intentionally not flirting with was

my future husband

he was thinking 2 different things than the 2 I was thinking

That is the girl I have noticed on our zoom meetings for work that I think is cute
She seems kind of… over all of this.

She’s either full of herself and doesn’t want to talk to anyone, or she could be shy.

I still want to take her on a date but not until the end of the summer so that if something goes south we don’t have to see each other everyday at work now that the zoom meetings are in person.

That would be awkward.

Completely rational

He might not agree, but I think the fact that I was low-key aloof peaked his interest

You know how the boys want what they can’t have ;)

Long story short-ish

I UNintentionally played hard-to-get with Nate

BUT

-noticed his cool surfer ski bum vibe

-wrote him off as not-super-mormon because of his cross necklace (I love all religions and people who are affiliated with any or none of them however I believe that dating someone with extremely different opinions can cause friction, unmet expectations, and conflict in a potential marriage.)

-was also attracted to the cross necklace (Utah’s version of bad boys are my weakness)

(give me all the extreme hairstyles and deep dark past stories about how you had a really healthy childhood + for no reason went through a wild phase where you drank caffeinated drinks and watched The Office on Sunday. The Scandal!;)

-watched him do a double backflip on the trampoline

THEN

My boss decided to send a bunch of us to St. George

He put two teams together in our airbnb and two teams together in the other airbnb

the other team placed with us was...

Nate Witt’s team

Ask me if it took much time living in the same little space as Nate to figure out how special he was

____________

I Just Wanna

now there was still a little fling going on

(sort of but not really)

with that co-worker I mentioned earlier and he was there as well

Just in the other airbnb

Things had mostly fizzled by then

However his family lives where we were sent to work for the week

he invited me to their house for dinner one of those days

“Do you want to come eat dinner with my family?” he said on the phone

“That’s so nice, that would be great!”

“Okay if I forget that I invited you, and forget to come pick you up after work, remind me.”

“....... okay”

That was when I knew.

Great guy… not my guy

Also I had just spent the last couple of days getting to know

Nate Witt

and

he was hot

"Nate is hot"

More importantly he was most of the things my roommate had said he was

except he actually was “that into the church”

Which leads me to the phone call I made right after the phone call with

“Remind me to pick you up” guy

I called Chancey a little bit annoyed and recounted my dinner “invite”

“There is no way I’m tryna remind someone to pick me up and take me to something that he invited me to do….

If he forgets I’m not going.

I’m not sure I even want to go anyway since it’s such a hassle for him

I just wanna go back to the airbnb tonight and cuddle with Nate

“Who the heck is Nate?”

It's what I said to her that makes me believe God sometimes answers prayers that don't end with amen

Sometimes even if their ain’t no amen you still get aman

I’m literally laughing at myself

not because I’m cheesy

but because I’m funny

;)

poop emergency

I don't know how relevant this is to the overall picture of documenting our love story

but it is a link in the chain of events so..

I'm gonna share it

Summer sales

If you aren’t familiar it goes like this

Someone drops you off in an area of 5-10 streets and you knock on every door

If people don’t answer you keep track of them and come back at different times of the day

You knock everyday

All day

And you walk everyday

All day

Unless you have a robot that rolls around

And I didn’t

So imagine what happens when you have

AN EMERGENCY OF THE BODILY FUNCTION KIND

I almost called an ambulance

There were no public restrooms in my area (the only area I had all summer like this)

Of course

The only area I have a poop emergency in is the only area I don’t have a bathroom

Well call me crazy

But God made it that way so that this could happen

Roommate picks me up after a series of phone calls and texts from me

Literally

losing

my…

__ __ __ __

we went to the local maverick

my life was saved

and guess who was there taking a break

Nate Witt and his brother

After chatting he offered to let me sell in his area because mine was full of troubled teenagers on parole in crappy houses with full-time rehabilitators

a.k.a.

they don’t want pest control

Nate kindly drove me to his area where I made two sales almost immediately

+ told me I could sell there the rest of the week which meant

All of my rides back to the airbnb at night,

would be with him in the driver's seat and me in the passenger seat

for the rest of the week

sharing an area + a testimony

We had a walkie talkie app with all the members of the team I was on and Nate's team for fun

It’s called Voxer

So I voxered the gang and said

“Motivational speeches… go”

My brother gave a motivational speech about something really weird.. It was like WWII or something

It was hilarious

Then Nate bore his testimony about how God’s hand is in what we do

And that when sales is hard for him he keeps God in his heart and miracles happen

My brother said something funny like

“Oh… yeah.. That too. What he said.”

Hahahah it was really funny to all of us the contrasting motivational speeches

And to me

I was swooning

nothing hotter than a man of God

I had great success in Nate’s area, and he never said a negative word about how he was technically letting me reap the rewards of his field

Only words of encouragement

His kindness in all things stood out the most right next to the steady hand of leadership exhibited in the way he led his team

along with the self control of doing hard things and making the responsible choices, was the free spirited way he preferred to sleep on the porch on a mattress of couch pillows with a view of the mountains and the sky.

He was and is a balance of right and real

Love and logic

Security and spontaneous

Grateful and grounded

These are the things I noticed that first week of many that I slept under the same roof as Nate Witt

But I’m getting ahead of myself

Where was I?

throw up

the first day we worked in the same area he came to pick me up and I was hit with a wave

A wave of nausea

We picked up his brother and on our way to pick up Matt I realized I was about to hurl

Big chunks

Yikes…

Not exactly how I thought driving with Nate would go

I casually let him know that I needed a bathroom STAT

(yes this was the second time in one day)

Immediately he drove to a Maverick

(God Bless Maverick)

While I was laying on the bathroom floor about to puke

I received several texts from him asking if there was anything he could bring me and asking me to please

“Call me if you need ANYTHING”

I did not actually throw up

I felt better after a few minutes and on the way home we were talking about a weird movie that he liked

Moving on from being sick

When we got back to the airbnb I suggested we watch it

Everyone was gung ho so in we threw on

Spirited Away

LOL

All I have to say is that it wins first place for weirdest movie I have ever seen

But what happened after Spirited Away is what is really important

Remember when I told you about telling Chancey I wanted to cuddle with Nate a few days before this?

Well after the dinner with my other co-workers family THAT day

There was a bbq with all of our co-workers at the other airbnb

The chairs were taken so I sat on my knees next to Nate

He got up and insisted I sit in his chair

Then that night when everyone was asleep he was outside on his couch pillow bed watching Avatar the last Airbender

(that was a sign in and of itself that this man was perfect for me)

I instagram messaged him a picture of himself

He was either going to think it was creepy or he was going to be happy I was taking that time to give him that specific attention

He opened the picture and smiled then looked at me through the glass door trying to see me but it was very dark in there

He said “it’s a great view out here. Feel free to join!”

So I Did

He put his arm around me for a little bit and we watched the best animated show of all time for at least an hour chatting as it played on

Eventually I went to bed

Fast forward to

Spirited Away

(a few days later on the night of the 2 time trip to Maverick)

We watched the weirdo movie

We were sitting on the floor next to each other

After the movie we sat on the couch next to each other and watched NewGirl until mostly everyone went to bed

I “fell asleep”

Nate “fell asleep”

Matt right next to me on the other side actually did fall asleep

I slowly let my head rest against his shoulder

The moment of truth

He put his arm around me

I scooted in way close and rested my head on his chest

He wrapped his hand in mine

Fireworks

I’m not joking

A couple of half hours later and my mind was wide awake because of the electricity I felt

I actually thought there were fireworks going on throughout my whole body

I know one thing for certain

I have never felt that in a kiss before, let alone holding someone's hand

Maybe it’s because somewhere inside of me, I subconsciously knew

I would be holding that same hand someday and saying

I do

At one point the electricity was too much

I had to squeeze him in a hug

He met that hug by wrapping both arms all the way around me in the biggest bear hug and squeezing me right back

I was elated

We finally went to bed at some point in time

Neither of us had said a word about it

I wondered the next day if it had just been a work trip thing

If nothing would come of it

I didn’t really know what kind of guy he was yet 100%

But I hoped to feel that electricity again with him someday

one of the other days

I had decided to start something funny in the Voxer while we worked

“Roll Call”

Whenever someone said roll call in the group chat, we had to send a picture of us on the doors

I noticed Nates looked GOOD

I knew it was probably on purpose

Which made me smile

but seriously we were both guilty of trying a lil too hard

real-life evidence of that:

It was the last day of selling down south with Nate Witt’s team

Sheep Tunnels

HUGE FUN FACT THAT I SHOULD HAVE MENTIONED EARLIER

We were in Cedar City for the last few days of that week and I happen to LOVE Cedar City

It’s where I attended SUU and obtained my associates degree before transferring to BYU-H

Oh Southern Utah University

How I loved that place

So many good memories

Now I have a great memory to add to it

One of the good memories I have from my time there is going to the sheep tunnels

The farmers needed a way to transport a lot of sheep through town safely

They didn’t want their sheep to be hit by cars

So they came up with 2 solutions

The annual sheep parade where the police block off the main road and a bunch of college students line up on the streets all dressed up like cowboys and they clap for the sheep as they cross the road

Food trucks show up

People cheer

Sheep just walk across the street

What did the sheep say when it crossed the road?

Baaaaa

Because sheeps don’t talk like us you morons